i can make you beautiful

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-07-27T16:01:00

2006-07-27T20:01:24Z

all right ladies and gents....

new journal.
why?
i think its time to retire the whole boys heart bj. i'm sure u all know guys love blow jobs.
and if u actually know me and saw my journal when it first was created you would know it was a tribute to my inspiration at the time Betsey Johnson. but since i changed the layout and took all the BJ stuff away it doesnt serve its purpose anymore... and if u never saw that betsey johnson shirt that said guys heart bj... then u really wouldnt get my real meaning of my journal... till now of course. but i liked people thinking i was just reminding them that guys really do love head. true story.

so yea new journal
melzdrivein

add it if you want to keep in touch.
remember i'm moving away!

this journal will contain lots more updates about life and lots more pictures of all the people in my life that i adore and the people who i will adore once i meet them.

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-05-15T23:06:00

2006-05-16T03:06:29Z

I'm like a drug.
I see it.

my things will be packed away. stored in a tiny unfamiliar room in Miami. my house will be rented out to who knows who. my room... my sanctuary... will be someone elses. my walls will be bare and repainted. my room. my small townhouse. my home of 10 years will not be mine for a very long time.

<3:(

oh
those motherfuckers killed denny. i'm so upset. i cried like a baby. i did.

photoshoot inspired by michelle kole

2006-05-05T20:46:55Z

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-04-30T11:28:00

2006-04-30T15:28:56Z

i <3

new york= amazing
sva= more amazing

i can't wait till august.

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-04-20T14:33:00

2006-04-20T18:33:34Z

another update of life!!!

love ya photo club<3<3

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boys_heart_bj @ 2006-04-18T23:03:00

2006-04-19T03:03:06Z

so I headed for work yesterday. I arrived and it was closed. apparently, Toni got pulled over for being... what a surprise... drunk. he was in jail and what not. so I got my Monday off. max text me so I went over and went with him to go climb trees.

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-04-15T02:03:00

2006-04-15T06:03:22Z

4 more months!!! and i'm goneeeeeeeeee. i'm too excited.
i'll be in NYC on the 27/28th... :)

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-04-13T13:17:00

2006-04-13T17:17:15Z

so my mom asked me to clean out my drawers and throw out clothes I don't want.

I realized that I have too much clothing that I will never part with. I threw out a couple of those huge shirts that clubs and organizations give you when you take a part in something. usually they are always xxxxL so whats the point in having them?

I still can barely close my drawers. so I decided to count how many shirts I have. 96. that's ridiculous. I need to stop shopping.

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-04-09T16:44:00

2006-04-09T20:45:00Z

am I intense?

just wondering.

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-04-08T17:10:00

2006-04-08T21:10:44Z

my life is boring.

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-03-29T00:17:00

2006-03-29T05:18:33Z

yea. makin icons and fixin old ones relieves stress...

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-03-26T23:15:00

2006-03-27T04:15:57Z

guys suck.

i just need a bullshit relationship. oxymoron? hm.

btw. defiance, ohio, madeline, matty pop chart, and of course erin toby were fucking great.
one of the best shows i've been to so far

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-03-22T22:01:00

2006-03-23T03:01:34Z

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-03-15T20:09:00

2006-03-16T01:09:48Z

yesterday i remembered why i don't like having girls as friends.

i dont even like friends, i just like my camera.

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-03-03T21:19:00

2006-03-04T02:19:42Z

i'm really confused and really unhappy.

well

2006-02-23T17:21:23Z

so the photo/art expo thing was yesterday and tho i dont have any pictures cause i locked my camera in the art room :( it was fun. everyone seemed to really like my work and my display. so yea it reassured me that i didn't completely suck. thanks to the people who came and such.. appreciate it.
umm besides that everything is cool. i'm getting really excited about graduating :) i'll be heading out to NYC during spring break to check out my school. and uhhh i also got my sched... its like 4 photo classes and 1 lit class..... i heard the dorms were gross tho...

o well.

and keeping the system goin:

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-01-24T23:25:00

2006-01-25T04:25:21Z

i just sent $1300 for a downpayment on my housing and enrollment...hmm

so I am again deciding to do that whole picture with every post thing... I wonder how long it will last. I usually only do this when I'm not active in the photo world... AP seriously drained me last year. err.

tis okay i have a photo shoot tomorrow.

so my schedule is new for the new semester.....
my last semester in high school and these are the classes I'm taking...

Sculpture with Mr.Mcknight...
American Gov/Economics
Photo 2 ( I'm registered as a student but I'm a Teacher Aid)
and
Photo 3.

its funny how my photo classes went from photo 1 to AP Photo to photo 2 to photo 3 and back to photo 2 again but as a Teach Aid.

Parties have come up a lot today... so I themed today a PARTAY talking day... and who knows how to party better than Sven and his drinking?!?

boys_heart_bj @ 2006-01-01T12:08:00

2006-01-01T17:08:47Z

I look forward to the new year every year... not because I get to start new and such. or because I'm heading towards my future and growing in age and I guess wisdom...

but because the sci fi channel knows how to make me squeal with its new years twilight zone marathon. I mean its the best two days of the year.
watching my dear Rod Serling take me into my favorite dimension!
ha . I fucking love new years.
it was spent with my boyfriend this year. we got a little on higher leveled side.
it was nice.

plus he got me the most incredible ring ever. its a sapphire in the middle and two diamonds on the side... its so gorgeous.
we are defining the ring as a friendship promise ring.
sadly we are parting our ways in august. :( I hate it because I love him so much.

but if we are meant to be together, it will happen eventually.

anyways......

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

winter shoppin for NYC

2005-12-30T06:46:03Z

i've been at my sister's house in tampa for about 4 days and i'm leaving tomorrow! home yay!
i miss my boyfriend and my friends.

it's been fun up here, i got to hang out with my sister and my bro in law who is like my brother. i've been shopping like crazy. so much new shit, so much money spent :(

i got to go to the Dali museum which was amazing and they had ♥roy lichtenstein♥ original paintings, chuck close, and andy warhol too! i came at the pop art tribute with dali. it was so cool.

and then more shopping...everytime my mom or i see some winter clothes (which is all on sale!) we buy it. We are planning to store it in a box for my "new york clothes". Anytime in the next 6 months i see cheap winter clothes i have to buy it. it's exciting and all but doing this its really hitting me. I'm moving away for college. I'm going to my dream school. I'm going to my dream city!!
i'm scared to leave everything behind but excited to start and meet new people.

i'm mostly excited. i can't wait to change everything.
i also can't wait to use all the photo equipment!

stolen from dani

2005-12-22T18:24:46Z

10 Favorites
Favorite Color: blue
Favorite Food: Chinese
Favorite Band/Singer: ghost mice
Favorite Song: Dead Flowers and Dirt
Favorite Movie: Willie wonka
Favorite Sport: er
Favorite Season: Fall
Favorite Day of the week: wed
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: cookies n cream

9 Currents...
Current Mood: happy
Current Taste: diet coke :( there's nothing to drink in this house
Current Clothes: black shirt and undies
Current Desktop Background: plan it x tour.
Current Time: 1:17pm
Current Surroundings: my room.
Current Annoyance(s): this bittersweet vibe i get from everyone b/c I'm leaving
Current thought: I'm moving to new York fucking city!!

8 Firsts...
First Best Friend: mabelle
First Screen Name: piglet4
First Pet: toto my goldfish that died the next day
First Piercing: ears.
First Crush: I don't remember :(
First Music: hole! man hole
First Car: yoshi... my crappy Toyota corolla <33

7 Lasts...
Last Cigarette: last night
Last Drink: diet coke
Last Car Ride: coming home from alex's.
Last Movie Seen: rent.
Last Phone Call: alex
Last CD Played: ghost mice

6 Have You Evers...
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: yea
Have You Ever Broken the Law: yea
Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope
Have You Ever Been on TV: yes.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: yep

5 Things you are wearing:
1. long sleeved shirt
2. underwear
3. thats.
4. about
5. it

4 Things You've Done Today:
1. vaccumed
2. got up
3. watched tv
4. umm... checked my mail

5 Hobbies/Sports you like:
1. photograhy
2. reading
3. tv and movies
4. attempting to paint
5. playing guitar

2 Things You Can't Live Without: (the superficial one)
1. tv.
2. computer.

2 Things You Can't Live Without: (the non-superficial one)
1. my family even though i claim to hate them
2. kyle

1 Thing You Do When You're Bored:
1. drive around.

SVA

2005-12-20T04:18:06Z

I'm moving to New York City

I got accepted to SVA!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to SVA!!!!

holy crap

school of visual arts... I wanted to go since freshman year...

I can't believe I'm going...

high five me times a million

boys_heart_bj @ 2005-12-18T10:34:00

2005-12-18T15:34:13Z

poloriod update! i havent scanned everything but this is what i have

sorry i haven't been online for a long ass time... but this is what i've been up to...

kyle

tower thingys in tampa thanksgiving weekend

ghost mice! missing pictures of erin tobey and funny ones of dan

fieldtrip to lincoln road with ap art!

courtney and justin

courtney in elevator

i had to

me and tawnie silve (one of my fav artists!)

I love my shoes.

2005-11-21T04:44:53Z

I'm so excited for the macy's thanksgiving parade... I hope I don't miss it all... because I'll be driving to Tampa... I'll tell my sister to tevo it or something.

yesterday my mom and I went shopping for my baby cousin's baptist thingy. I bought myself a cute shirt and the most amazing shoes in the entire world... only 75 bucks!
(haha) my mom bought em for me but I offered to pay. they are gorgeous! I keep telling Kyle and Alex about them... mostly Alex cause he knows how I appreciate a good shoe or shirt or anything... and plus he's a fash fag.... just straight.

during dinner my mom asked me what I wanted for Christmas... and I said nothing. first time I couldn't think of anything I wanted... I have everything I need and more.

but I'm gonna ask for the cowboy boots I saw in Miami that I loved... cause I remembered how much I <3 them. i already started savin for em but whatever.

anyways fuck everything... GHOST MICE TOMORROW!!!

boys_heart_bj @ 2005-10-29T12:44:00

2005-10-29T16:47:49Z

i have no power. so i wont be online for awhile. i'm down at my mommy's boyfriend house to get gas. there are no lines. so i dont have to wait 6 hrs for gas.

call me... 954-540-8452.

i love everyone.woot

boys_heart_bj @ 2005-10-17T21:34:00

2005-10-18T01:34:24Z

yay ghost mice and erin tobey nov. 21!